I'm not normally someone who puts her life problems on the Internet, but because I decided to open up on here and share what the doctor told us, I feel that I need to update. I'd rather be on here cracking jokes about our kids, or relaying some funny story about Miles' potty training. Unfortunately, the cardiologist told me yesterday that he doesn't think that the left atrium herniated. In fact, he doesn't know what is wrong. Boom. Bombshell. Back to square one.
Well, maybe not entirely square one, but that's sure what it feels like. He is referring us up to the cardio specialist at OHSU, but we're still chasing answers. Meanwhile, giving the kids a bath, and making the bed set off my chest pressure and discomfort. I've been back at work this week. I'm uncomfortable, constantly feel like Carter is sitting on top of me, that I just smoked a pack of cigarettes, and that's just when I'm sitting. Even if I WANTED to go on a run, and if everyone who saw me in Scott Valley didn't stop and put me in their car in a straightjacket, I CAN'T PHYSICALLY run. I can't do 20% of what I could do physically a month ago.
SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME. I went from running 30-40 miles a week, lifting twice a week, and crushing a 10 mile run at a seven minute pace, to barely being able to maintain daily functions.
I'm determined, I am tough, and I will chase this down.
You're in our thoughts. And, on the bright side, your 20% gets more done than most people's 100%
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